Netflix, Truck, Bruises, Move, and More!

Dear Husband,

First...NETFLIX...the Netflix people have given me multiple solutions, because I called multiple times. One said all you have to do is log on to Netflix.com. Use my name and password, and you should be on.  She also said they no longer give out installation CD's. I called back, second call, no installation CD's try logging on, but if not it may be a quicksilver download you need. That should be in your email. Third call I made, still no CD...so I guess they really wont give me one...do all the above, but if you still can't get on, to call your ISP provider because you're picking up a "dessert" Proxy server, and you need to use the American one. If other guys can get on, then its because they are using the American Proxy server. Last info person went so far as to tell me, "Just have him ask the other guys how they got on." So, that's Netflix.

RENTAL and TRUCK: You know I got stood up by the landlord, and email explains that. --I took the car off for like 3 hours, but I plugged it in again as its still -47. and well, I want the truck to run. Apparently, Shaun's wouldn't run either, and his was plugged in too. So now I don't feel dumb....

BRUISES AND MOVE: As the below photos will show, I am being beaten up by this move. But the top living room is almost all packed. DVD's, CD's, VHS's. I also have packed any hanging and loose uniforms... All of your clothes were packed (previous). I'm not moving on from living room until completely packed, but it's getting there. For a break, I went and closed up some of the sterilite boxes in the craft room. So, that's the moving stuff...I have no idea how I acquired the bruise-- aside from, I have banged my leg on boxes.
--The bruise on my wrist however, which looks like someone mad-handled me...that was the dog, pulling on his leash. I don't give in...so bruising.

DOG--Hunter was awesome again today, we saw the moose (see below photo)...and I'm sure you know where that is. He stopped right there, and made us turn around quickly, straight to the door. No barking, whining, nothing. Just looks up, turns around, and pulls me in a "LETS GO" not run, but quick way. Very smart dog *I* have.

He's feeling better, but getting bored. I put him out for an hour, but it was still -50 in the day, so I brought him back in. He seems to understand, but is still teething, and now its obvious hes grabbing anything to chew...I've started to supply him with the hooves, the smoked bone, and pizzles, but he really wants my gloves, my hands, or something he shouldn't be chewing on :( At this point, I'm praying we get through till we move out...like, I will move the dog and cat and an air mattress, and move them on the 16th! Sigh.

I think that's it in Alaska.... Everyone is staying in due to weather.

I am praying you get a trailer soon, for your rest and mine. I'd love a normal sleep schedule, but my mind won't sleep without talking to you at night. My mom thinks its normal and her solution is naps...but I know that is counter productive. I just want you to have a decent bed. and for your shoulder to not hurt. and to have regular access to Internet, and most of all Non-Douche bag tent mates. I hope you're feeling better.

In other news, Ben's grandma died. We talked, he's okay. Kats handling it.

Okay, so that's the book. I love you, stay safe. You're my everything. Kisses, hugs,

Love YOU, Your Wife

At least the bruising can't be blamed on you...

Given my recent Moose Adventures...

That dot is a moose!

Not the picture of my bra I wanted to send..

A little proof

Deployment Diet Dinner

I'm trying.

Saw these, Laughed quietly to myself

Guard dog

I had a bad dream, woke up thinking someone was in the house,  grabbed gun, turned lights on, my noise brought dog upstairs who just laid across the bedroom doorway. Like, "Relax, I've got this." I went back to bed in seconds. :)

Sorry I Cried, Gold Star Worthy

Dear Husband, 

I'm sorry you saw me cry. I haven't this entire time, and well, it was probably just the fact that you looked so good, that made me scared to lose you. That was it...a temporary scare. I'm already talking with Jenn again, as she was on the computer with "Bri" at the same time...yeah "BRI..." can we say, that will take some getting used to. Weird. LOL. --but yeah, Monday Ice Cream planning is on.

I also already emailed all the folks the address change. with a small update that you were fine, sick, moving, and had little access, so that's why you weren't writing....AND looked better than before, safe, and that you missed them all, thanked them for their prayers, and that you loved them. See. Good. Gold star worthy. 

That's it. I'm really sorry I got emotional. it seems stupid in hindsight, but I know it probably wont be the last time. Know that I'm okay though, and at least I cry in front of you and not all day or anything. 

Okay, well that's it. You're my everything. I love you. Be safe, be smart, try to stay healthy. 

Love YOU, Your Wifey

Moms Dog

See this is MY dog...
Chewing a bone watching tv. Chill. MY dog.

YOUR DOG

Can I get through just one day without finding something gnawed or chewed on or destroyed?

The crazy thing is, he's behaving so well. I have no idea when he does this. He lays down quiet or chews on a bone lately.

Maybe it was destruction when left inside home alone? All I know is he's a good dog for me lately, and it's hard to scold him for what I don't see.  

Deployment Diet Dinner

Text 'Em...

Dear Husband,

So Kristi and Rick use this program online...I checked it out, and since we have unlimited Text, it shouldn't impact our bill.  But they do keep ISP's...then again I'm sure every one does, but it may be a OP SEC issue? you let me know...

But...yeah. http://www.textem.net/ I can ask T-mobile if they'll charge extra...Apparently, Rick send text via Internet and Kristi responds, and it shows up on his email. Something in case you need an immediate response?

I keep my g-chat on at all times now, but it was just a FYI/ "other" "free" thing to use???  But I do like G-chat...I especially like it when its working. :) Which, again, sorry about tonight. I'll try to do better. :) I know it wasn't my fault, but I should have ensured it was working prior to packing boxes...Although, I don't know how I would have confirmed it, but I feel guilty to not utilize your time to the fullest... Anyways, I hope its all better now...I Love you soo soo soo much! And I love seeing your handsome face via chat. I hope you get an Awesome, even better room, with magical Internet, and unicorns! Or at least a better bed? Try to stay positive with me, okay. I love you...and your mom worries. Try to write her just a line. Like,

"Hi mom, I'm sorry I haven't written. I still don't have a routine down. Wifey has the address, she'll give it to you. I am at work, but I will try to write when I can.  Tell Pop I love him, and take care of yourself too. I Love you, ...."

See, templates are good. I love you oh so so much!

Love you, You are my Everything, Love, Your Wifey!

After the bleeding stops...

If I did good, I learned from the best...if I made it suck, well I'm not you.

This is what I get..trying to fix the damage

Daddy's dog...again...

empty dresser

Dear Husband,

This dear, is your empty dresser. After back and forth text with Jennifer tonight, who was doing the laundry, I was motivated to at the very least, fold ours...Since, after all, you did so kindly wash some. :) After folding, it seemed silly to put it in your dresser, so I made a box, and in it went.  After this, I decided, your entire dresser could fit in a box...and it did...So, tada, empty dresser, 1 full box, and laundry done.


In other news.Well, as we like to say, I have some good news, and I have some bad news. The good news is, Someone decided to "plow" or plow into our driveway...resulting in well, a packed and plowed driveway that I don't need to shovel....The bad news is...they ran into our fire pit....The good news is...the top of the fire pit seems to have survived, the bad news is, the frame is bent.

Also, today, my Facebook explains my day, shopping for you, plus getting my GREAT PURSE, and then Operation Give a Hug! I think those pictures are worth a thousand  words.

Yeah, so, that's what on our side of the pond...Also, my arm hurts from lifting one box. Which, is soooo lame.

We all miss you...I love you, and you are my everything. Be safe, be smart.

Love You, Your Wifey

not entirely accurate, but nice to think on...

Dear Husband: 


I found this widget:

Even though its highly inaccurate, it's kinda nice that every moment is a count down until you get home. 

As to our FIRST Video date...wasn't that great?! Amen for technology! And Free technology...How we could really save and use that money! Wooo-hoo, crossing fingers it stays free! But more importantly, it would be worth every cent to see your handsome face. I am so blessed to have you as a husband. Again, I appreciate our "face" to "face" time so much. Thank you for that. 

In other news: Landlord wrote me a nice letter, wondering how "house acquisition" was going, and when she could stop by to see the step...I told her This Weekend! ...I'm going to CLEAN like the Dickens...Assuming the Dickens were clean people??? Who came up with these names? Like Keeping up with the Jones's...Can I make a saying up? Like, Ballin' out like the Weigl's? --Just say'n. :)

Anyways, I feel much better Health wise. That cough was horrible, and that seems almost completely gone. I'll still take Robitussin tonight, but I think I'll be med free by Friday. 

I'm going to stop by the attic tomorrow, and then pick up my HUGE gorgeous purse!Hee Hee I'm so excited! ...and I hope you know why? It's my rememberence of you...inside and out. You are on my arm, even while you're gone..and that means so much...Plus, it's a brag bag dear. Kristie says it all the time to Rick, but I've never said it as vocal or perhaps as much as I need to: I am so very proud of you. 

Not many people at all know what you face. And you have faced it so courageously. So very humble, and yet, with pride. I know when you signed up for Duty, you knew what was expected of you. While your one "job" itself is one of many in this big machine called the Armed Forces, remember what you do, get one more guy closer to coming home. I only wish you could see for a moment the way I see you...You are amazing, and yes, I am SO VERY PROUD...

Anywho, here's a funny that made me think of you. And You may not want to play this in public...in fact, wear headphones. Oh but it may squeal, it did on mine,..Anyways, just pay attention to the last 2 minutes. :)

VIDEO

Okay, with that, I love you. You are my everything, be smart, safe, and Blend baby, like a Predator. 

Love You, Your Wifey

Dad's Dog, Caught in the Act

My first deployed Monday

No sleep means weird dreams

Dear Husband,

I'm updating from phone...and trying not to wake dog. Kristie, in good sense told me to get sleep at around 2300. Didn't happen. Went to sleep at maybe 0100...woke up at 0230, took dog out. Woke up again at 0630...
So much for not waking dog...0716 now.

The dog seems to be doing much better on his modified diet. Eating at least. I may need more dog food sooner than I expected.

This just in...I'm hiding under the covers so dog doesn't see phone light and goes to bed ... Its working!

Weird dream: you know the song by kanye "gold digger?" I dreamt US soldiers were singing that...

I also dreamt I was taking a math test and the girl next to me began reciting some piece of literature, like Shakespeare or something. I remember nothing but  the words "mocking bird." Weird right?

Anywho, dogs crying again. I love you. Be safe, get home. You are my everything.

Maybe these letters should be private. Your thoughts?

Love YOU, Your Wifey

Day 1 'ish

Dear Husband,

I went to the Dining Hall like you told me too. Ate alone, but saw Porter and Fields. I got spaghetti and broccoli. It wasn't great...but for $2.70 I'm not complaining...Except, well, when I had to come home I was hungry and decided to eat a peanut butter sandwich...and then I had to eat a sausage sandwich. :) --So much for portion size on this "deployment diet."--I'll get there, I think I was just starving from not eating today/this morning while waiting for calls, and being sick and sleeping instead of eating. (Yes, this is me lying to myself.)

Kristie was busy with another couple tonight, and Jennifer's "In-town" shopping took her longer than expected, so I went to the free deployed family bowling...I took a picture of my shoes to prove it. :) Jen wants me to call her as soon as I wake up tomorrow so we can hang out I think. But, that's really it. ..Oh wait, NO...

BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT: I was speeding on base! Unintentionally... of course.  --For the Moms reading, I didn't mean to, and this is a Big Accomplishment because ever since I drove off the freeway into the snow I've been unable to go over 25. --So, yay 40mph in a 35 mph zone!  

Okay, so that may be it.  I want to save some convo material in case you do call...I miss you. The "kids" miss you...Hunter is finally sleeping under the bed tonight. I know it will be forever till I get a call from you, but the phone is always on the charger and next to my pillow now.

Try to sleep well...I'm actually tired, and its 10:02 my time! Isn't that great. I may sleep tonight! MAY....Oh, I've learned the time difference between us should be exactly 12 hours. So my 7pm is your 7am  in the Next Day! Another Easy to remember. :)

Remember this, I love you, and you are my Everything. 

Love YOU, Your Wifey

Pre-Deployment, Dear Deployment

Dear Deployment, 

I write tonight to tell you I do not hate you. You are the cause of pain, and heartache, and, truthfully, I do not like you at all. But, you are necessary and a burden my Soldier has chosen to take on.

As a Soldiers wife, I knew I would face you; and, as you approach ever closer, I refuse to give in to your fear, loneliness, or anything else you choose to throw at us. 

My husband and I are stronger than you, Deployment. You can not hurt us. 

Deployment, we will use you. We will take your distance and say you have provided my husband with a land he has never seen.

We will take your separation to show that while we can be strong alone, we choose to remain together no matter the hardships. 

Deployment, we will face you and see an opportunity to experience that which we could not experience together. You are a challenge, Deployment, but we have faced worse. 

My husband a I are stronger than you, Deployment. We will overcome you. 

I am not naive, Deployment. I have seen what you have taken from so many. And, yes, you may get me down every now and then, but I will never forget, your days are numbered. 

I may pack his boots, so that he can be with you Deployment, but he will come Home to me. 

I promise you, I will never let you win. You are temporary, Deployment; my Marriage is forever. 

On a personal note, I thought I should warn you, Deployment. While you have beaten others, you do not stand a chance with me. 

I have a family that loves me, a husband that is true to me, and one hell of a past that tells me you're just another mountain to move. 

So Deployment, know this...My Husband may be with you, but he'll always be thinking of me.

Sincerely, 

MRS. USAF

PS. If this letter has put things into perspective, and you'd like to cancel yourself, be my guest.

Introduction

Dear Husband, 

These Letters are for YOU. I don't promise that the writings will be anything special. They will, in fact, probably just be letters about what I ate, or how the dog and cat are doing.

I know "I" want to talk/write every ten minutes on what I'm doing, or new questions I have, but writing Facebook status updates or on "your wall" seem too public, and well annoying to everyone else.  Plus this is probably less "public" than Facebook, not connecting our names and your "location."    Also, as opening email after email may become annoying, I am hoping this will be a little easier for both of us.  

Additionally, I'm keeping this public, so Momssss, and Dads, and friends can check in on me, without -well- crossing a time zone. :) Another reason, is well, perhaps other "wives/spouses" may read what I write and will give me advice. 

So to you hubby, I love you. Get home Safe, and Sound. Be safe, and smart. Know you have a Home to come home to, even though that geographical location may change....You are my Everything. 

Love, Your Wifey

P.S. I chose Mrs. USAF as my name as a tribute to you. actually. My  friend Michael used to call you Mr. America's Air Force when we first started dating. I thought it fitting that as your wife, I became Mrs. America's Air Force or Mrs.USAF for short. Plus...isn't it easy to remember?

P.P.S. I still love you, and always will. 

To Everyone Else, 

Life as a military wife has not been an easy journey. In fact, it is quite a dynamic roller-coaster of emotions. Hopefully "this" account will help me handle the curves in a positive light, and allow those who care about me to  keep up in my day-to-day struggles and more importantly, record the triumphs of the next six months while my husband is deployed. 

In summary, I am currently a stay-at-home wife, preparing to buy our first home, and as aforementioned, treat my dog and cat like they are children. This is my first deployment, and as the next letter will mention...I refuse to fear deployment and intend to make this part of the journey, just another mountain to climb. 

Enjoy the ride. 

Respectfully, 

Mrs. USAF