Even on our weakest days...

I know today wasn't our best day, and I'm sorry.

I know that you said it was "nothing I did," but perhaps, I didn't do anything to make the situation better either...I know I need to BE YOUR SUPPORT. Your safety net. Not a mirror. So I'm sorry. I know you just need time.  But I just feel like I failed you today.

I try not to cry, and force myself to smile--a lot...I keep this song in my head lately. The lyrics, at the very beginning of the song, describe my every morning....
"Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain
But I brushed my teeth anyway
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stronger" 

..Not so much with the rest of the song,,,that you left me because you wanted to, but because I know you had to. I know you would be here for me if you could. I only hope you know that I would be on a plane in less than a heartbeat if it got me closer to you. I really would.

Anyways, I try to stay strong, but thats unfair for me to tell you to do it. Know if you can't, know that I am here to listen, or not say anything. We could just look at each other? Have dinner over skype, one night maybe?  I'd do anything to make you feel better. To make you excited about deployment again. I know this is not what you expected. But "it is what it is"--I know.

Anyways, know I love you. YOU are my everything. and there could never be another....I'm so sorry I'm still new at this, but every day I learn. I'll try to do better.

I love you, YOUR Wifey